All I want is to love and be loved in return. I want to escape. I want to be free. I can't have all three things because one gets in the other. I don't want to continue hurting the one person that has been there for me. I don't want to disappoint the people that have taken the time to look after me. I don't want people to feel obliged to do things for me, or feel obliged to talk/listen to me. I feel as though I am a burden. To everyone around. Especially to him.
All I've ever asked for is a normal life. It may look as though I have it but I don't. It has never been normal. I may sound as though I am whining, as though I am taking everything for granted, which maybe I am, but I don't care. This is how I feel. Fucking useless.
